It cant get any ***ier can it? I know..bla..its not a word..

So I just got out of a psychiatric unit today. I got in Friday afternoon. I hated it though, and fought my way out. Ive never felt so hopeless so lifeless so EMPTY. This is the major problem bothering me now...BUT wait till you here this. This allows me to say fuckier, my world is absolutely absurd in every aspect.

I got home, went to school, then proceeded from school to go to my sisters house. She is twenty years old and lives with her boyfriend and child.

MY friend who is MY age, started dating a kid I absolutely absurdely adored. That was a year ago. Now heres the real kicker....

They all got so fucked up with xanax this weekend...that my sister had a threesome - with the kid that I ADORE and she knows about - with her boyfriend. And so now my friend hangs out with my sister because the kid I liked dealed for my sister and her boyfriend.

A nice kick in your self esteem is good everyonce in a while, you know... holds you in check.

But I cant take it every second anymore. I want to curl up and be high.

Oh joy, my world is still here, and bleeding.