ugh I just had to get this out

Well, im really just trying to get this out of my system, but i've been thinking about it alot lately. Now im only 14, but still. Commitment. Growing up. Getting married. Having kids. I think about that constantly, how im going to end up. How do people stay commited to each other for so long? It scares me because you see divorce everywhere now, im scared to even think what might happen. I keep asking what if's. What if my child was 6 and only had a month or less to live? What if my husband abuses me? What if I won't be able to have kids? What if I can't make it out in the world? What if i can't be successful? I think about all of that. Worry about it actually. I just keep thinking about it and I don't know, I guess I'm just scared. I'm scared to talk to my friends and family about it, because they might think that i'm just being paranoid

Ugh, i'm so sorry for that I just had to get that little rant out of my mind. I'm not looking for comments or anything, just had and urdge to type.