So...Life

Life? What the fuck is it? Something we all wonder I think. But do I think too much? Are My psyco-ly impossible dreams real?
Am I dreaming this now?
Is this all an illusion?
IS this all fake?
Is goda real?

Does everyone think these thoughts at least once in their lives? I seriously wonder if I am a bad person everyday. If life will go on tomorrow. If things will last. But I don't even know if its worth wondering anymore id were never gonna find out. There is no point in it.
All questions aren't gonna be answered. No friendship truly ever ' lasts forever'. Why do we do this then? Why even wonder why?
I don't know shit anymore. I don't know who to trust who to stay close to. I don't even know what the one person I ever truly actually cared for more than I ever have for anyone feels. If he even knows. so why do I even bother? Who cares anymore?