I'm not saying that for attention I really do believe I might have that.
I don't want to at all but as of lately I've realized slowly my life has been disaranged and complicated becoming more and more hopeless too.
I don't even understand either. I mean Im not always happy, I tend to snap on people more, and thats completely not my character. I feel like crying almost everyday, and I feel helpless, I don't understand what's wrong with me?
Why am I acting like this?
What has changed that would make me like this?
Someone please help me.
I don't feel like myself, every day I feel like cutting all over again (I haven't since december.) because of my stress, I've been smoking a lot lately too.
Somethings not right and I have no idea how to fix it or explain it.
I also noticed I've been having really bad axeity, something I've never had in my life!
Ugh! Maybe I just am stupid and saying this for no reason at all. -_-
Sorry for this lame, stupid, journal, I never post anything like this but I needed to get it off my chest, ugh I feel disgusting for saying this even.
XOXO
Raven <3
I think I have depression.
May 31st, 2009 at 05:21am