I need my meds. Venting

once again i find myself in a bad place. i have meds that i take. they keep my from having panic attacks. hurting myself and others. last time i came off of them i went crazy. you see i have been out of school for about ayear now. i got to show that i am still going to go to collage or incerince (sp) will stop paying for my meds.with out incerince my meds are about $1000 dollors even. i work but i do not have that kind of money. will i did not sign up for collage because i was soppost to get a job with benfits. the job has not come in yet and i have till next friday to get it or i go without pills.... i am scared and worried. i do not know what to do. once again i cant do anything right....