november

fragile leaves hit the ground the cold air drifts into my lungs i see ur face through the fog reminds me of the of the dreams u lost i can see it in ur eyes you are broken down your hands are tired i can feel it in my side over and over ive tried i broke my heart it felt so good to see u ive never been one to put my trust in when i did i became so weak or have i always been i cant put all this back in place and i know u cannot hide over and over ive tried this gaping hole in my chest is filled with deceit i fear that all my cries fell upon deaf ears i caress flesh with severed nerves i go veiled in darkness and disease this november swallows me whole and this may be the closest thing that ull ever recieve to and apology i close my eyes and i can see ur dead