Keeping it together,

My mother is in the hospital right know and my dad just told me we won't see her for a really long time . I don't know what to do , there is a possibility that everything could go wrong ... the worst part is that the day before we had a huge fight , I was really annoyed and jeah ...
I just want to hug her and tell her how much I love her . It's third time she's in the hospital , she doesn't deserve this . I am freaking out , there's a huge lump in my throat and I try to keep it together , not to cry but ... I'm really angry at the world right now . I couldreally use a hug right now , my dad is acting like nothing happened , he's smiling and .... but I can see the pain in his eyes , the thing is that I can't to anything , It's making me sick , I feel so useless ...
December 2nd, 2009 at 04:08pm