beaten bruised and scared

heyy journal
i have had the worst life ever i just got out the worst relationship ever
he beat me and kicked me then left me there
i never thought that he would i mean he was so sweet but now im so scared to ever leave my house i weatch around my back walking out my door because im afraid he will be there to beat me again
he left me it was so scary and im not sure what to do i cant tell anyone like my parents because they will literally kill him and i still love him because of all the beautiful times we had together
i dont want to go to the police because like i said i love him so much still but im afraid and i dont know what to do can you help me

anyone what do i do