Loosing my touch =(

So today I've been opening some really old documents like 2 to 3 years old and I compared my writing of then and now. I noticed that I was losing my edge.
Please compare my old poem that I found in my documents. Click Here
and compare it with this one a poem that I wrote a few hours ago. Click Here
Obviously, they're quiet different seeing those years ago when I was in the age of 10 I suffered from depression and started writing grim rhymes, but the darker my poems are the more deeper it is.
When I compared it to me unrequited love poem, because it was so light the unrequited love poem look bland. Ick!
My poetry got less deeper when I started to be uplifted from my suffering.
It's quite funny really remembering those years when I thought all my writing was stupid and didn't explain what I felt, but seeing them now I think it explained my feelings back then very well.
and readng my newly made poems it doesn't have some pizzaz , though they said it was "cute" or "amazing" to me it doesn;t compare to the way I wrote then.
Ugh. am I really losing my touch?? =(