WHAT?!?!?!?!?!

Gosh,just when everything between A7X and the Jimmy crap was getting better.
Weeeeellll that's what I thought.
Until I got home Friday afternoon from school and got a call from my dad.
This is the conversation.
Dad:Kort?
Me:Yeah.What's up daddy?
Dad:I got something to tell you.
Me:What?What's wrong?
Dad:*crying*
Me:Daddy.What's going on?What happened?
Dad:*crying and quiet*Ruthie killed herself last night.
Me:WHAT?!?!No.She couldn't have.No,she didn't.No!
Dad:I'm sorry.I'm soo sorry.
Me:Is Keenan okay?*bawling HARD*
Dad:*chuckles sadly*No,hunny.
Me:I mean is people with him?
Dad:Yeah,papa stayed with him last night.
Me:I wanna see him.Make sure he's okay.
Dad:I know,but let's get everything settled first.Kay?
Me:Yeah.Yeah.That's good.If you see him,tell him I said I love him.
Dad:I will.
Me:Kay.Bye.
Dad:Bye.

WTF???
Yeah I know..I'm sooo not believing any of this right now.My Ruthie can't be dead.
She's my best friend,my second mom and of course EVERYONE knew her as my Aunt or my other side.Ruthie had always been there for me,my grandma and papa and my dad.I don't know what me and Keenan are going to without her.
I love you Ruthie and I always will.