The Cuts Just Get Deeper And Deeper

I have tried my hardest to keep myself alive but its not working. Every cut seems to just get deeper and deeper. I don't know what to do anymore. I want to kill myself but something is stopping me. Most nights I find myself crying myself to sleep, after slicing my arms up. Most days are like torture, even just getting out of bed is hard. I've been told that everything will get better but I can't see it. I no longer know what I should do. Maybe its best if I just die and leave this place. Maybe, just maybe.....