December 17th
It seems things look as close to the story then ever. It's been endless raining the past three days. Jacob seems more and more like the character. When I think of things I like, I've gotten more similar in ways and relate to. My Edward isn't a vampire, mine is human I can be with him for the rest of my life. Though it is crazy to say that I had agreed to marry him. I want to break up with Jacob, though not break his heart. Killing or stabbing someone is not in the book of things I want to do. Though I have to make a choice.
December 25th
I have grown to much see the choices I make. I decided to not be friends with Jacob. He'd been too much of trouble for me. I decided to go the path of my Edward. I am trying not to mop around and feel sorry for myself.
December 26th
I feel as though I'd lost a part of me.
The fun, happy person that I was.
It would seem days go by slowly when I am watching them.
It doesn't help to look at the clock, because only seconds pass.
The minutes don't seem to be like seconds anymore.
I hate of the misery life can be once making a mistake.
December 31st
I don't know what to do. I am so confused in so many ways. I feel really bad for Jacob, because he says that he is in love with me.