Nov 2008 these words are all I remember

I think back and ponder your words, they cut me now as they should have then. This pain I wish I couldn't feel, tearsthrough me again tonight. 
Did you not say we had the rest of forever in our hands together? 
Now you say you never thought us to last....
I always heard you say you loved me, so why do u now say you only thought maybe one day you could?
So I gave in, I asked you to tell me the small, simple words that would set me free. Still you say you cannot say even those. You've made me hold on to you as you shatter my heart, my soul all over again. 

And yet still I love you...