House of Horrors

Am I making to big a deal about this? Should i just get over it.... It's not like I haven't had worse.. At least he didn't touch me... and why can't I just be OK with Stephanie and Keenan being together? I'm scared I've lost Brittany and I don't know what to do, I think I've failed school... I might as well tattoo failure on my fore head. I secretly hate myself I'm too skinny and my boobs are to small I wish that I had better control over myself...
i cant go on like this forever
i need to get away from here
i need a quick cut or a fast sever
i need to know I'm in the clear
I've been beaten I've been abused
I've always kept my mouth shut
i feel so used
I've ripped out my hair and i used to cut
I've been raped and looked at
I've smiled through it all
have you been where i once sat?
did you see what i once saw?
have you ever been so scared,
that you scream and scream but you still feel hopeless?
do you know these feelings that I've just shared?
I'm fucked up and my life's a mess
I'm done now good bye
maybe ill see you
one day in the sky
June 11th, 2010 at 07:16am