If They Like You...

Then why do boys pick on you?
Make you hate them?
Make you feel ugly?
Make you want to die?
Make you want to become pretty even though you already are?
Make you cry yourself to sleep at night?
Make you want to become a whore to see if they will like you then even though like you the way you are?

If they like you they SHOULD:

Make you realize that they love you.
They won't make you fell pretty. They will make you feel BEAUTIFUL.
Give you THEMSELVES as a reason to live.
Make you feel beautiful and tell you every second of the day.
Hold you when you cry even if the tears are happy tears.
Tell you all things that make them like you for you.

You see, that is how it should be.
But that's how it's not.

You see I know exactly how that feels.
I hate them.
I feel ugly.
I didn't want to die but I thought about it but I wouldn't give them the satisfaction.
I didn't feel pretty no matter how many times my friends told me I was.
I cried myself to sleep.
I thought about wearing slutty clothing and sleeping with them but no, I am still a virgin and I am proud of it.

I am pretty.
I am beautiful.
I am good just the way I am.

From them being jerks I have become a better person.
Because of them I am cautious around guys that are like them.
Because of them I sit at home watching "Ten Things I Hate About You" the movie wishing I was Kat and had a Patrick.
Watching "Titanic" because I wish I had a Jack (plus I think Leonardo DiCaprio when he was younger is drop dead gorgeous!)
Because of them I am a better person.
And when I go back to my 2020th high school reunion with a drop-dead-gorgeous man by my side, they will wish that they were nice to me.
They will wish that they had me feel special and loved.
They will wish they could have something they can never have.
And I will laugh in their faces.