I have been

Let down
Beaten
Raped
Forgotten
Left
Sad
Mad
Happy
I have been all those things
but one thing i havent been is yours
knowing shes yours and im not
i want what we used to have back
i want my bestfriend back
i want my rock
i want the person i call at 3 am high as fuck
just to find out they are even higher
i want that guy that made me laugh
and kissed me good morning
well i guess i cant have it
i just feel so alone in the world
i feel like no one knows what im going through
i just put on this face and tell everyone im happy when the truth is im dying on the inside