it's... not working...

so... frusturated...
nervousness, anger ties my... intestines into knots...
can't... eat.
can't... sleep.
can't... love.
can't... sit still anymore!
but... there's nowhere to go...
it's a problem i can't... resolve...
they just won't... listen...
and when they push... me away
when i try to... speak...
their ears are... sealed...
i must help them, i have to help them!
but... i can't...
their lust is mire... they're sinking...
i'm just barely clutching their... fingertips...
they're shaking me... off...
"ok, 'mom', i think i know what i'm doing!"
no... you don't... please listen... please get away from him...
then i see the blade flashing... down...
then it's sideways... in my... back...
guess i pushed them... a little too far...
oh God... do for them what i was inable to...
Father... open their eyes and ears...
Holy Spirit... attack them and... convict them...
for i have not the... strength...