Just a...nightmare

I want to see him agian.
I want to wake up and have my big brother hold me once agian like he did before.
I want someone to tell me that it's not true.
Not just any someone.
I want HIM to tell me
To tell me that it was just a dream
NO! Not a dream
Tell me that it was just a bad nightmare.
To whisper in my ear that everything is going to be okay!
No longer will anything happen with him.
No longer can he tell me everything will be okay
No longer will he be able to call me little sister....
No longer will I be able to run to him and have him hold me while I cry.
I want away from this place.
This agonizeing place called California.
I will go somewhere where no one can find me and take me back to misery.
Tennessee. That's where I'll go.
No one will think to look there for me.
I left my friends... my brothers friends....Jimmy's friends.
The nightmares are still here.
No one to hold me and rock me back and forth sleep.
My bestfriend is gone
My brother is gone....
foREVer
No longer will I be able to call him big brother
No longer can he take away all the bad dreams
the nightmares.
With him gone?
The nightmares have just started
I just want to see him agian....
Call him brother agian
Have him hold me...
Keep on banging on those drums brother....
have fun.
Maybe one time I'll see you agian
Soon enough I will.
Maybe then you can hold me while I cry, and tell me
that everything that happened was just a dream.
Not just any dream
tell me that it was just a really bad nightmare....
October 1st, 2010 at 10:53pm