okay well im starting this journal to put my feeling out. i feel like i need a way to express how i feel and i thought this would be good. so ill start off with the basics. im Sara Crystelle Grant. im 16. im a Pansexual and very proud.im a junior in high school. music and theater are my life. im a very confused and fucked up person. i can be a perve. and i can be really shy and i hate it. school is hell for me. i get picked on for being myself. i lost my grandma about a month ago.and i miss her alot :( ever since then this past month has been like a living hell. my parents have been fighting. my friends are starting so much more shit with eachother and me. im falling behind in school work. but ive been working on getting things straightend out and focusing on what important...but thats pretty hard for me. My school life is finally picking up again. Drama Club has tstarted so i have to get back into costuming. and Drumline starts in a few weeks. i cant wait. its something that brings happiness to my life...fourtunetly. being a Junior in high school is hard because you still get judged by the seniors and the little freshman. god i dislike freshman. they think there so perfect and that there gonna make it through high school strong. i was there once and it was so hard. i lost my best friend that year. because of her over aged boyfriend, who i dated before her and he cheated on me with her. then sophmore year hit and i thought things were getting better untill my friends graduated. so this year im trying to make it through with my friends i have left and with the few friends i gain here and there. my best friend is theresa. but im not sure anymore. we hang out alot but she always tells me im annoying. and theres devon. my love and my best friend...if only we were together. god schools even harder without him there. he was my frist love and i still love him. and i want him back so badly but im not sure. hes been so much more loving to me lately and im not sure how to take the signals hes sending me. and theres michael..oh my michael...i love him so much too...but hes in GA and im in NY. i have to wait 7 months to be see him. so i think me and michael should wait. mabey i should focus on things with me and devon for a while. hopefully ill see him this week. so change in subject. ESCAPE THE FATE :D there new CD comes out in 9 days (: i sooo cannot wait. but i must. (: im a hugee escape the fate fan so ill be counting down the days. blehh well i thinkks i should wrap this up. i do have school in the morning. soooo ill write tomorrow (:
<3 Sara Crystelle
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