I'm giving up.

So I posted a journal here a few days ago about the girl I really like. I have been thinking about it obsessively, and I find myself growing more and more upset with each passing hour. I am simply going to give up on trying. I don't.... I don't want to put myself through that sort of pain just to find out she doesn't really love me back.

I have decided that from now on, I will... stay by myself. I don't need anyone anymore.... Maybe my mother was right when she told me I was undesirable. If not, I guess that's why I now live with Dahvie and Jay.

I don't know. Maybe I'm just overreacting, maybe I'm not. Advice...?