18th Jan 2011, My Life

Ok so I'm me obviously and well sometimes I feel like killing my brother.

Today is one of those days where you feel like crap and the world around you is completely stupid. I was actually ok with the day, it wasn't that bad but then my brother woke up and I was immediately thrown head first into depression.

My brother has ADHD and didn't take his pills today so he has been a little git and won't leave any of us alone. The whole family, me Mum and Dad, have been relegated to our rooms because we can't be in the same room as him, he drives you nuts.

I can't sit in the armchair in our living room because it's between the two doors and he finds it hilarious to run his fingers along all the keys on my keyboard as he goes past whcih messes up what I'm doing and I have to spend ages trying to work out what the hell he did.

if you shout at him he gets worse, if you tell him off he gets worse, if you do anything against him he gets worse and I can't stand it, I'm considering going to a shrink to get some pills of my own so I can space out or something and don't have to deal with it.

I can't even move out ebcause my friends are miles away from me and I'm broke because my job has had to cut staffing hours because of the UK's money problems.

The only escape I have is sitting in my room and writing stories while trying to drown him out with music but there is only so many times you can listen to a playlist over and over before you want to rip your hair out

Plus I don't have a lock on my door so he barges in when he wants something and he is always barging in asking for sweets or something that I don't have and then gets pissed thinking that I'm lying to him, if i want to keep him out i have to sit in front of the door and brace my feet against the wall to keep him from getting in and then he tries spitting through the key hole at me though I've blocked it now

Any way that has basically been my day today, you can read my stories if you like, my short stories kind of have a theme and thats basically because I feel rather like that at times, thanks for reading about my woes