People never notice anything.

he says:
• I dont like it when you get like that tho =<
I say:
• I was just having an existential crisis
he says:
• and I dont like that
I say:
• you shouldn't worry about them
• I cope
he says:
• yea, but I dont like seeing you be so hard on yourself and get depressed =
• =<
I say:
• i'll make sure to not let it happen while I'm talking to you then
he says:
• how about makeing sure it never happens?
I say:
• no can do, sorry
he says:
• try
I say:
• I tried
he says:
• try harder
• and more
• never give up
I say:
• it's not that easy
he says:
• I know it's not
• but you should try and stop haveing these crises
I say:
• [ name ], I've been having them since [ name ] died. They're not going to stop
he says:
• if you say so

The moment I started opening up to someone about my moments of depression they end up being indifferent.
I just...I just wanted him to ask. To care and show concern and want to help even if he couldn't. But he did exactly what I was always scared people would do; he shrugged me off.

If you happen to be reading this journal entry, do me a favour;
• Visit/text/call/IM/email your friend/sibling/parent/relative/whoever.
• Ask if they're okay/how they're doing.

It'll only take a few minutes but you may be throwing that person a lifeline. You'll be letting them know that they're not alone and reminding them that you're there for them. Feel free to pass the message on, link them to this journal or whatever too.

But, before you go; how are you doing?