its just too late

today...i went to my last years crush's facebook, jason,we are friends on FB...so its not like im stalking him..well anyway i was checking out his pictures...and he looks happy where he is...iknew he liked me last year, but i kinda pushed him away...and if only he knew how much i miss and care for him...if i could i would repeat last year and change everything..i let him slip away...and now im kicking myself about it..im just really sad..hes so beautiful..i never met ANYONE like him..and ive never felt like this with my other crushes...i have one on this friend have..but i dont have that feeling i had with jason...im just...sooo dissapointed in myself...you know that song:" Hey Stephen'' by taylor swift..well when i hear it i think i about him....what makes it worse is that i think he moved...i didnt really see him as much anymore...so its like he was never here anyway...but still...just the fact that i know he might be out of my life forever just makes me feel worse..but any girl would be lucky to have him ..ihope she treat him good..hes a beautiful soul..ihope hes happy where ever he is...but i keep thinking to myself..would I have made him happy? ill never know now...its too late... :/