The Shadow I Can't Avoid
When does progress begin to show in life? Because I need it right this moment. The life I never want living in the south is coming to me slowly. Not some redneck life, but a horrid white trash one. My father was always put up as an example for me, not to admire, but to know what I never wanted in my life. Smoking weed all the time spending day, and night with sketchy people, at bad places. Never having a decent night sleep, and always depending on other to be there for him when needed to take care of himself. The only thing I'm missing In my life from his is a dead end roofing job, and child support. Im getting so much help in my life I don't want, but what the hell else am I to do? If I don't have anything to show for by June, well looks like another waste of life, and a dead beat is born. I can't keep try with no results at all. Things just seem to get worse as I go along. What motive, or special something does everyone else have that I don't? This was a short entry, but my feelings are true in it. At least if I reread it it'll make sense...
April 2nd, 2011 at 12:19pm