Anyone Ever Feel Like This?

I hate shopping.

Especially with these new scars I have to hide.

So many pairs of shorts had to be turned down, because they wouldn't cover all my scars.

And everything I tried on...
Was disgusting.
What I saw in the mirror...
Was hideous.
My legs.
My arms.
My face.
My hands.
All of them.
Hideous.
Disgusting.

Cute pair of white shorts with blue pinstripes.
Size 13.
Oh my god. Look at you... You're so fat. Size 13?! You're so fat! How can you even stand to look at yourself! No one wears a size 13! Oh and by the way tubby, your scars are showing.
Guess I won't be buying those.

Comfy pair of black shorts. On sale.
Size 11.
Size 11? I thought black was slimming... But you definitely just proved that wrong. Put them back... You're better off wearing sweats for the rest of your life.
Make it stop...

Regular old pair of denim bermuda shorts.
Back to size 13.
Well this settles it. No lunch or dinner for you today. Look at all that fat on your legs... We need to get rid of that. You need to stop eating.
Alright.

Colorful swimsuit top.
Medium.
Look how flat-chested you are! There's literally nothing there!
I know.

Red one-shouldered top.
Medium.
I only need one word to describe you right now. Embarrassment.
Yeah. You're right. I'll put it back.

Plain black v-neck.
Medium.
You should be wearing smalls. That's what everyone else wears. Why are you so fat you have to wear a medium?
Actually... Not a lot of people wear smalls...
Shutup.

Why do I even bother...