Pathetic.

today has just been a bad day. And its not only today that ive felt bad. everything has been bad and i cannot concentrate. today is sunday and i wanted to finish my project tonight and i however have not been able to concentrate for things ahve been on my mind.
i personally think that if i happen to die today no one would or will care about me. my life is pretty sad that that is how i feel . i suck at trying to talk to people and i thought this was my only way that i would get stuff off of my chest. i just wish someone was there for me, but im honestly here on the world by myself. i will keep trugging on anf this is how it will be forever. just a small town girl living in a lonely world, those may be lyrics but that is how i feel right now and nothing will really change my mind.

i dont even care if i ever finish this project and it is worth 10 percent of my mark in my class. ive only gotten about 40 percent of it done. i want to be atleast at 65 percent but i doubt that this will happen.

i just really need someone to talk to, but no one is ther. so i am honestly just writing this for me. Yes i am finally doing something for myself and not for others. I am done doing things for others and not getting any respect. All i really want ia a please or thank you every once in a while. but i doubt that will ever come.

ive been hating myself. and will never accept a compliment. i will never find myself pretty because i am honestly not good looking at all. nothign is "pretty" my skin is not acne free, my hair is frizzy, i could afford to lose 20 pounds, i am extremly white, i have freckles i wish my bones were smaller, and this list could go on and on.

im just fed up and realized that i am really pathetic.