*** this.

soooo, i'm done...just in general..i've honestly lost all will to just live day by day....all my relationships lost their meaning just because my baby girl died ( R.I.P. Sammy <3 ) and i seriously am having a hard time finding a reason to live...=/... my first true love died on me....my second hates my very guts and presently doesn't give two fucks about me...and the third girl is now with some-one else....strike one....strike two....strike three...i'm out right :) life is going downhill too...i was kicked out of school because i was sick for over a week...life with my current girlfriend sucks...she's not who i thought she was....i'm finding myself flurrieing downwards into old habits.....and i'm finding it hard not to find someone to lend me a pistol =/ but enough of my mindless murmering time to go plot out a nice funeral for when i finally die :)