i have the Biggest Insecurity Problems E V E R

i hate the fact that i have insecurity problems. it pretty much sucks! My bestfriend is freaaking gorgeous and she has guys falling over her everyday and its like when we hang out guys are always checking her out and going up to her it makes me feel even worse :/

i'm in no way jealous of my bestfriend but i just have the fact that no sees me for me. At school its even worse we don't go to the same school though. But anyways i'll be just walking around or something and some would say oh damn that girl is ugly like damn really? i think i'm freaking fat and my face isn't pretty at all..

Then i have the problem of being extra dark, thats my biggest problem i'm super dark skinned and it bothers me soooo much. Like all guys think of now is a red bone ( which is a light skinned her )

Everyone is always telling me i have the best personality in the world ! But if i do then how no one see's it? Definitely because they look at my face before they can ever get to know me smh. I hate it so much.

Blah i wish sometimes i change things about myself but i guess that's just the way God made me right?

I've been trying soo hard to break my insecurity habit but i can't , when i was younger it was even worse, it got a little better i guess. BlahBlahBlah . Hopefully it gets better as i mature i just want to be pretty that it be a pretty dark skinned girll </3

loove Nichole