To Be (Terrified) Or Not To Be (Terrified).

I've had guys hit on me. More like, sexually abuse me with words.

And I hate it. I want to punch people like that in the face. Tell them to fuck off.

I'm not androphobic or anything, but I'm nervous around guys sometimes.

Truth is, I'm terrified of love.

I'm terrified of people hurting me. I'm always getting into trouble because of it. I lose control and hit them. I'm usually this cheerful 15 year old girl that loves pocky.

I have very few friends because of this.

And there's other reasons why I don't hang around guys much.

My friend's brother raped her when she was a little kid. She didn't know what he was doing. She couldn't do anything about it. She used to cry herself to sleep every night her brother even touched her by accident.

My uncle abuses my cousin. My cousin tries his best to put up with it.

I'm not afraid of people. I'm just shy. And a bit fragile. And cannot stand perverts.