Last night I spent the night over one of my friends house.We ended up drinking and I was just depressed and spacing out,and when I have time to think..I think about recent stuff,and the most recent stuff was when Jason And I got into that fight a couple days ago...
So I hit the booze hardcore,but I was just buzz.
it sucks.Going through this whole thing and just tearing myself apart,but I don't even know how to just stop.
Not only that like all my friends have boyfriends..so when they talk about them I die a little. "Once upon a time I screwed up and lost the only thing that matter to me..and there was no happy ending.The end." Booze just is another outlet for dealing with the break up.