Akward silences are awkward.

So there was a little hangout with my friends today and we went to go play laser tag :O

We were meeting up with a few other people there~

and I got a little surprise there...

It was my ex girlfriend :I

Very, very, very, very, very awkward. If I knew she was going to be there I wouldn't have gone in the first place.

Harsh kinda of me I guess there's reason enough for me to think that way.

Why?

I guess you can say our relationship was built on lies...and believe me whether you want to or not, but it was all on her part :/

But the feelings between us now wasn't just from that, it built up over time.

Do I hate her? No not exactly, but I don't care for her. I have no second thoughts about her anymore.

Why am I writing this journal which seems to be all about her then if I don't care?

Because seeing her like that was too sudden. v.v

I may not care for her or what happened but that doesn't mean it still didn't happen. So of course I'm going to be sulking a little now and there is slight pain...

but I'm letting it out now...and I already feel better :3

but hey thanks to her I wrote I new poem!

The idea behind it is kinda related to this situation...but not exactly. But I'm sure you'll get it <3

The Name I Loved

I'm sure the title gives it away a little too..xD

But I hope you enjoy and comments are appreciated ^^

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On the other hand, I had a wonderful time >3 I love laser tagging!!!

My wonderful friends who I love and will love forever and ever and ever plus another eternity and then some ditched the other group with my ex and took me to go paintballing afterwards <3

Paintball is always fun too x3

Ah....did I mention my friends are amazing? and that I love them?

cause I do :3 <3

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well that's all x3

again check out my poem

The Name I Loved

and tell me whatchaa think :D

I LOVE YOU ALL! <3