Please help me!! I need advice

It's been a month since my ex of 6 months broke up with me.. I've been crying for over a month.. Idk what to do except I'm so in love with him. My heart says he is the one but he loves another girl who happens to e a friend of mine now... My therapist says I have a lot of problem.. Iv been molested and raped about 10-11 times(by boys and girls). I am so scared to be without my bf even though he is now my BFF... It's just I love him and my heart aches for him.. I know I love him.. What do I do? I'm a depressed bipolar suicidal cutter.. I've even started hearing voices in my wad that say to cut and kill myself.. So what do I do? My heart is broken and I can't see myself with another guy.. The girl hurt my ex by kissing another guy even though they are waiting for two years to date.. I don't think that is love. Is it? I can't even imagine being with another guy cause I love my ex too much... :( what do I do ? </3