If you are suicidal or harm yourself please read this!

I have been exactly where you are. I have been so unhappy that I when I went to sleep at night I would wish that I would never wake up again. I have cut myself many many times. I have gotten drunk almost every weekend. I started smoking. I disconnected myself from everyone. I never wanted to do anything. I cried constantly. I sent guys pics of me, text them dirty dirty things. All because I didn't respect myself. I was so unhappy with my life for about 2 years. I only had one person that really understood what I was going through and talked to me. I didn't think that I would ever be happy again. But this year everything has changed. I have an amazing boyfriend that is there for me, and has talked to me about my cutting and depression problem. School is great. I'm very happy with my life now. I haven't cut in about 2 months. I haven't drank in about 4 months. I don't smoke all that much anymore. I don't have suicidal thoughts. I'm more outgoing. I'm just totally different. I can honestly say that I have never actually wanted to keep my life exactly the way it is until now. The point of me telling you all of this is so that you can realize that things can get better. You just have to make yourself try to look at things in a positive way. And that may sound kind of corny, but it's true. If you look at things with a bad attitude, then things will probably turn out bad. So please next time you have a suicidal thought or the urge to harm yourself please consider that things WILL NOT be bad for the rest of your life. You can make things better. It's kind of just a mind set. Try to be optimistic. That's what I'm doing this year and things have been wonderful so far. I really hope this helps you. Don't throw your life away. It's worth so much more than you think. I promise.