My First

I think i'm feeling heart break for the first time. I told him how i felt about him and he pretended that he was okay with it for a while, and i pretended i didn't mind waiting for him to give me an actual response to my confession. I waited so long, patiently, for him to at least give me some kind of sign. Well i think i just got it. He's been acting terribly towards me, calling me names, talking about me to my friends. Someone who likes you back wouldn't do that to you...would they? My chest hurts when i think about him, and i cry out of anger more than once a day. I almost want to hate him, but i think it's wrong to hate anybody. I guess that's what i get for making myself believe he actually like me back. Everytime i like a boy, they get a girlfriend or convey to me that they don't feel the same, but it's never hurt me like this before. He was supposed to be my bestfriend. The one who could understand the things that i wanted to talk to him about. My dad, my friends, my life, everything. I know i can live without him, i've done it before but...It just makes me so mad.