SCREW THIS!!! I NEED MY SISTER!

I am seriously tired of all this crap. I just want to be happy. But the thing is that will never happen... All I want to do is find someone, I am tired of looking around and seeing people happy all around me. it's driving me crazy... I hate it with a passion. but its w.e. All i need is for my sister to talk to me... cause i have a feeling that i will do something bad to myself... but yeah. All I know is, is that my christmas break better have something good in it. Or it will be the worst christmas vacation EVER!