Growing up I thought that was the one thing I could count on, that I would fall in love, get married and have lots of kiddies. Now falling in love, I don't know if I could really ever give someone everything.
I honestly think I'm too f*cking messed up. I can't let people love me, I shove them away. And I'm not saying this to sound all emoish and lonely. I'm lonely I get that, and I'm okay with that. But that doesn't mean I don't want that love, that unyielding desire for another person.
Well, that's what the love songs say, but is it actually possible, or is it all fantasy?
I want that. I can handle being alone. But I want that desire, that love. I want to be stupid and I want that blinding emotion. I don't care if they don't love me back at this point, I just want to feel it. To taste it as it rips through your mind and makes you all warm and fuzzy inside.