One last good bye, to Kendra.<3

I'm dealing with the loss of a very close mate.
I don't normally bear around with my personal issues, but whatever.
Me and her have been close for years now, 10 years or so, she had been through things with me since I was on drugs, 'til i went sober.
She was a great friend, and wonderful sister like figure to me. she laughed with me, at me, she hated me, she loved me, she cried for me, she did everything a best friend should and would do for someone they care about.
She was depressed, and emotional, and didn't know what to do with her life anymore, and no matter what I did to help her, to guide her, it didn't matter anymore.
As the fact of the matter began, killing herself was in her mind, and she did just that. Jeesh, I mean, I felt like my world was officially turned inside out, and didn't wanna go back to the way it really was. That's how I feel at these moments. lately, things haven't been the same. I hope Kendra is up there somewhere in heaven, and knows I still love her.
God bless Angel.<3 Love you.