my life plan

my life plan is constantly changing the only thing that is certain is that i want to spend the rest of my life with my boyfriend. i want to join the military, the army, to be exact. i am at conflict because i will hardly be able to see my boyfriend if i do join. then, we could break up and i feel like i'm making him give up his life to be with me. even though he offered i still feel bad. and if i die on him while in action, i could never force that amount of pain on anyone. he doesn't know i am still conflicted. he's behind me one hundred percent and he's willing to do all of this for me. i just feel so selfish like i'm robbing him of enjoying a happily married life. hmm.. i have a lot to think about and i'm just not sure what to do.