all I want

at this point there is no helping me, I just want to leave to be away from everything, I want for just once in my life for someone to look me in the eyes and say that they understand and know what I'm going through, I want for just one person to find out about all my scars and not turn away calling me psycho bitch, for just one person to be here for and with me through everything, for someone to be able to look at me and go past the smile and know that it's fake that inside I'm dying I want one person to love me no matter what...