Why?

I don't want to say a lot. I'm afraid if i say to much, it just might be way to much for some to handle. My life, well it's not a life. Well i mean it just doesn't seem like a life. Ever since i was little things have been going down hill for there. Ever since mom was locked up, Since step dad died. I've had it hard. So hard. Recently a few months ago, something happened to me. Ever since i've had nightmare's i've cut, i've hurt people that loved me. And now a friend of mine says i should make thing's right. Says i should tell someone. Get some help. They say it will clear my head and i'll stop feeling so hurt about it. The thing is i guess i never thaught this would happen to me. But ever since it happened i've been trying to forget. But i just cant.