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-its 3 months later and i'm just realizing how much i still love you. I've been pretending i hate you and that i want nothing to do with you so I wouldn't have to deal with the pain in my heart, but i realized I'm gonna hurt no matter what.
-I wonder sometimes if i wouldn't have just pushed you out would things have turned out differently?
-Have you shed as many tears over me as i have over you? I cry about you day and night but you just go on like its no big deal and just act like it never happened.
-Im crying over you again and everyone's worried about me, but i don't want to tell them whats wrong because i don't want ta seem like a stupid girl crying over a guy she's still in love with and that broke her heart.
-I still love him... and he told me he loved me today.... I miss hearing his say that everyday. It makes me feel complete and warm inside.
-i got a hug from him today!!! He smelled really good. HE asked me why i had stopped calling and tenting him, but i didn't know what to say. Still want him back no matter how many times i say ihate him and dont like him istill love him