Why?

What is wrong with me? I have no social life, no money, no self esteem, and no way of ever finding someone to be happy with.. Now school takes up some time, but that doesn't change the no social life.. My work barely pays me money.. I'm a giant waste of space on this dying planet..

As much as I try to make things better it folds over on me.. I pretend I'm happy. The guy I'm 'seeing' I'm not seeing. Two times in the past 3 weeks for maybe 5 hours total doesn't count! He said he has more time from work. YEAH! he goes back to Toronto for a week, then goes back to work with no time to space for me.

I can't handle any of this. It's not fair at all.. There is nothing right about me.

I have no reason to keep my apartment clean anymore.. No one to have over.. ever.

I just don't want to do this anymore...