This is becoming painful.

I'm becoming depressed yet again, but that's no surprise, is it? The same girl, the same problems. I'm half Akers, and the Akers have a curse. A jealousy curse. There's a guy I've liked for a while, before I even talked to my girlfriend. I kind of love him. And he flirts around a lot. Even though he has a boyfriend. And it drives me crazy to see it. So crazy that I've been so depressed lately that it hurts to function. Like, sometimes... The things I see in my mind kind of scare me. In some scenarios, I just see a bloody bullet, or a bloody razorblade. In some I see pale arms with deep bloody gashes.

(This isn't finished.)