I wish I could redo a lot of things.

I messed up so much with you. It’s hard to see you and realize you don’t care about me anymore. That I’ve done so many horrid things to you to a point to where you can’t accept me in your life anymore. Knowing I’m nothing to you, when I used to be something to you, hurts so badly. We’ve lost contact for so long and I regret everything. I regret even hurting you in the slightest way. I know I basically stomped all over your heart, and it kills me. I never knew someone could love and care for me like you did and all I did was ruin it. I miss you so much I can barely breathe sometimes. I wish things were different between us, but I know you’ll never forgive me. I never meant to ruin the best thing I had in my life. I never meant to give up on you. I never meant to ever leave your side. I’d do anything just to mean something to you again.

I’d carve my heart out of my chest and hand it to you on a silver platter.