my life

i feel lyk such a hypocrite cuz i tell my friends that they need to think positive then i go home and tell myself that im fat and ugly and that ill never get a boyfriend and that im a horrible person then i finish telling them that they need to think positive but i guess inside i kno at least half of the things that i think about myself is false but i dont kno but dont hate me bcuz of it i dont need to feel worse i think i might be emo but im not sure