im scared.. what do i do and say?? yess plz listen if you want!

im so stressed... i dont talk to my family that much and today i had enough of every thing at school and home.. and i caved in!

i have an appoinment with a counseler next week.. what do i freggin say??? im so stressed..
i still miss my grandma.. STUPID DEATH ITS SOOO GAY!!

should you bag mouth death??

i dont care.. !! right now i dont care about any thing... except for help..kinda

i saw a teacher today she said to talk to my family....

FAMILY??

i can barely say hi with ouy getting in to a fight... goshh!

things are so hard.. my friends all have problems that their dumping on me..

AHHHH!!

but i know im not gonna cut!! no matter how much i want to !!!
im never caving in again i made a promise to elle not to.. and i wont..

oh please, some one help me.. coz i really have the urge to goddamn cut!
ok and now i feel like a dik for posting this.. to put problems on you, waste your time!!

i always do this..