day 1

Today marks a new day... day 1 in my trial for recovery. Today will be day 1 of many days that i begin to learn new ways of coping. Last night I gave my box with all my razor blades in it to my second mom (aka... Jacki). I've never been so frightened in my life. I gave away my one thing that helped me cope for four years. I'm ready to stop cutting and let my scars heal. I'm ready for new skin, new confidence, the ability to wear shorts and tank tops in the summer, I'm ready to overcome the biggest addiction in my life. I'm letting go of my control and holding on for the ride of my life. Today marks day 1