*Sigh*

Okay, so Im watching the first new episode of degrassi right now.
It doesnt really matter if you know whats going on in the story because my feelings dont really have much to do with the whole story. I'll explain.
So there is this girl, Clare, who was dating a guy named, Eli. A lot happened and they broke up and all that yada yada yada. So anyways, in this first episode they basically get back together after having kissed before the summer break.
Now my story. Well I was dating this guy before summer started and I started falling really, really hard for him. Then he broke up with me. So watching these two on the show getting back together after all that. Now the super special thing is that after he broke up with me I kissed him. And like really kissed him. Like a real "Im seriously in love with you why are you leaving me?" kiss.
The worst thing is that I still have feelings for him even though Im crushing over this guy at my work...
I dont even know right now. Like why do I still like him? He basically ripped my heart out and stomped on it...
Ugh Im so confused. I dont even know what's going on in my head right now. Im so... just *sigh*