I need to get this out of my system

I'm not pissed at him. I'm pissed at myself for believing him. Well, wait no I am pissed at him too.

This always happens so I don't even understand why I'm so upset. Just waking up to that stupid text message with a simple apology after I waited two hours and JUST BARELY got out of my plans for today made me go ballistic. This is why I didn't want a friendship with him and avoided him for his entire summer. I'm so tired of everything about him. I just needed to vent somewhere. I'm going to go throw myself into my writing while I let PTV blast and not give two shits. I'm content with how I was and I'm going back to that, I left high school back nonsense behind when I graduated anyways. This'll pass, 'out of sight out of mind' is my best friend when it comes to things like this.

This is too many feels for only waking up 20 minutes ago.

~Entry #10