It's hard for me to make friends.

I get that it's hard to make friends for a lot of people - but it's hard for me in a different way. I don't like chat buddies, or acquaintances. It frustrates me because I'm the type of person that wants to actually know a person. This is why I've never had a lot of friends, because I want to, not entirely skip the "getting to know each other" phase because that part can be a lot of fun - but I'm really in my element in the "true friends" phase... if that makes sense. I'm the person that wants to know who you really are. What makes you tick, what you're afraid of, what your character flaws are, what your strengths are, your talents, your goals, your fears, your passions. But then again I'm in a place right now where I can't make friends because I can't reach out to others. I'm too hurt and weak. So... in a way... screw everyone.